Wednesday, August 30, 2006
I MISS HIM ! <33>
haiish ...
i am like blaming myself for not picking up the courage to talk to him .
i feel like so useless larh .
just tomorrow and it will be 3oo days .
1o bloody long months .
and i havent got over that someone .
why cant i jus forget .
and go with someone who treat me better
and care for me more .
know how i feel ..
life without someone
you truly love seems so miserable
why am i keep thinking of him larh !
arrghh ..
i feel so frusturated !
tomorrow is the last day of school !
yayy !
and after skool i am going meet
giovannaBAOBEI
and we will go back to BTPS !
omg omg omg !
i cant wait fer tmr to come larh !
dont feel like going school tmr .
dont know lerrh ..
i feel so siian !
got back my progress report ..
okay ...
i failed 2 !
ih and home econ
GOD DAMMIT !
everyone failed ih larrh !
patheic !
only 3 person pass !
ahahahhaa !
stoopid can !
ohyah !
got in trouble today in school
with mrs koh
me ; caroline ; acelyn ; azura ; alissa ; celeste
we didnt go fer prodots yest ..
and went fer econ pratical durg lunch ..
the home econ test was due last week !
suppose take on monday .
but all of us forget to bring !
and thanks to miss lim !
she went to tell miss ng about us ..
and miss ng went to tell mrs koh
and mrs koh come find us during eng ..
den she start screaming ; nagging and blahhs .
den i was looking in her eyes
we had alot alot alot eye contact !
den i was the only one among the six of them to tok back .
and they all just diam diam larh !
i think i going to get demerit point .
and detention again .
GOD DAMNIT !!
Last Updated @ 11:20 PM
you are all i need Y
Sunday, August 27, 2006
i am bored !
miss blogging =D
well ,
just finish crapping with edwinKOR ; giovannaBAOBEII ; weilunKOR !
it is so darn funny larh !
me and gio was like luffing like crazy people !
ahahahaa !
crap so much tonite !
my future son name will be _______ _____ wei yang =D
lolls lolls !
then gio will be _______ _____ yang wei ! =D
den weilun will be chua yang yang !
den edwin will be kok wei wei !
HAHAHAHAHA !
darn crappy =D
on friday ,
went meet andyPAPA ; wenhaoDII ; jasmineMAMA with mahera at arena ?
den down there full hse ..
den me ; jasmine ; mahera ; jasmine fren go jp play arcade !
yeahh ..
den saw kelvinDUMBDUMBHEAD and xiiaoying =)
den play arcade .. play play play
till darn late fer lesson !
ahahaha !
this fcuked up woman in the train !
veri what larh !
she sit beside me in the train !
she was with her children
den she sit herself okay !
den nvm ..
i sit i nvr even make her .
den she ask me not to make her skirt .
WHEN HER SKIRT IS FCUKING BLACK !!
and ugly !
and i nvr even make her !
so fucked up okay !
den i nvr ..
i put down my leg ..
den later i make her pissed by blasting my music .
den on sat ..
went out with dad and sis ..
den dad bought out 6oo$
sis bought clothes which cost bout $1oo plus ..
den yeah .
dad bought me mp3 !!
HAPPY LARRH !
he tot i bought the 2gb which cost $3oo plus .
but i took the 4gb which cost like $44o ?
den after that .
yeah .
dad send me to town .
meet up carolineBOYFRIEND and ruiping ..
den cynthia ; jasper ; patrick =)
went play arcade and stuff .
den caroline and ruiping left .
den i went with cynthia they all .
walked to ps .
and blahhs ..
played arcade again till bout 9 plus 1o ?
den went home .
yeapps ...
haiish ..
my life seems so messed up now .
i dont know what i really want ..
i feel so troubled larh .
i want to do stuff that
i wish i could pick up the courage and do .
but i just dont .
i need him by my side
dont know larrh ..
i miss him so ..
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Friday, August 25, 2006
my lovee for HIM !
* censored * LOLS !
I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND !
i was trying to sleep on the floor and caroline cum lie beside me !
mahera and chloe <333>
i love her TUCKLOADs !
us <#3 in the lift =) 
mahera ; chloe ; nattnatt <#3 
mahera and chloe #
doraMAMA and chloe <#3 
twins hearts <#3 
i am helping people do homework okay !
fireworks <#3 12o8o6 
the firework that we watch =) 12o8o6 Last Updated @ 11:09 PM
you are all i need Y
Thursday, August 24, 2006
i cant sleep !
i am still trying to get my home econ work done !
i promise miss yati =)
she almost cry today !
i feel so freaking bad ..
i took all my test on tue !
and later in school i got to take my math test !
well ,
yest ..
miss ng caught those ppl hu nvr go fer prodots .
and mrs koh cum after that ..
blahs blahs blahs .
den had 3 period eng ?
stoopid bytch lesson :D :D :D
den home econ !
fun fun fun !
i didnt get to cook !
i will be cooking on monday ?
after school :D
so caroline ; acelyn ; me
went around the whole class tasting FOOD !
nice nice nice !
had to stay for detention =D
detention is kinda fun :D :D :D
expect you cant tok and do that stoopid reflection ?
it end at bout 4 plus and me and caroline slack !
den yeah ...
we decide to go to novena !
hahahaa !
she went to meet SOMEONE .
and yeah ...
feel so extra larh !
blahhhs !
my fate is not with me larh !
blahs blahs blahs !
i knew it was white larrh !
but caroline say it was brown .
so i said brown !
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH !
haiish ...
i dont know what am i feeling now larh ...
i am feeling so confused !
maybe i should do some soul searching.
and search for what i really want :D :D :D
him or HIM ?!
HIM or him ...
arrghhh !
i dont know larh !
i dont wish to hurt anyone .
Last Updated @ 1:53 AM
you are all i need Y
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
Life without him seems so different
although everything is normal and fine ..
but it just seems .. so weird .
everything around me is changing .
and things missing from my life ..
i am thinking if there is really
something called "miracles" and "fate"
i believe they exist here =)
i prayed for miracles to happen everytime
and recently a miracle just happen =)
but when that miracle happen ,
life seems to have more problems ..
me having to face those problems myself ?
without anyone being there to help me or understand me ?
Fate ,
i believe that everything is plan by fate .
good or bad ,
we just have to face everything ..
Love is selfish ; pain and never never fair
i admit that being love and loving someone
is a veri fourtune feeling ..
but love ,
what is love actually ?
love to me just seems to be selfish and pain ?
seeing other couples together .
really make me envy them so much ..
why cant i just be with someone i love and who love me ?
for a long long time ..
who can be there and love me ..
pamper me and sacrifice things for me .
when you`re together with that very special person
that one who you truly love .
in the beginning ,
everything just went nice , great , loving and sweet .
in the end ,
what will happen to that nice , great , loving . sweet relationship ?
hurt ; pain ; depression ?
in love is it a must for someone to get hurt ?
why cant that nice , great , loving , sweet
relationship last for a long long time ?
love is so selfish ..
maybe this is all fate ..
maybe we can only find a happy ending in fairytales .
i wish for a fairytales life
when everything is planned well and perfect ..
and the story can end with a ..
happy ever after ?
that is all a dream ..
but i really wish to have someone ..
someone by my side .
who can love me ; pamper me ; trust me ; sacrifice things
just for me ..
but i think nothing like this will happen in this real world =)
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Friday, August 18, 2006
I CHANGED A NEW BLOGSKIN !
give comments okay =)
ii was like feeling so bored at home larh ..
i feel like i am in jail can ..
stucked at home ..
BLAHS BLAHS BLAHS !
i dont know what to blog lerrhs ...
this few days have nth to blog =x
life seems so boring !
i want to go out !!
i miss the world outside !
i miss school
i miss my friends .
i miss my ARCADEE !
i miss going out lorrhs ..
blahss ..
i shall blog later if i relli feel bored =)
takkcaiire ~
Last Updated @ 5:00 PM
you are all i need Y
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
so long never blog ler =)
my com is like spoilt ..
thanks to me ..
i went to pour water while playing games ..
and the water overflow larrh ..
and the whole keyboard is like ..
filled with water ..
and this few days ..
i have freaking sick ..
den nvr go to skool ..
2 days ler larrhs !
kinda miss skool lerrhs =x
hahahas ..
things happen yest ..
blahs blahs blahs ..
dont feel like toking bout it .
haiish ..
did i relli changed alort ?
i read gio blog ..
haiish ...
friends are more important to me in my life
i cant lose all my friends ..
i feel the care and concern from everyone around me ..
i just dont wish to see everyone being worried fer me .
i feel bad ...
i relli dont know what to do ..
why cant i just be the girl i used to be ..
i feel so shi bai in everything i do ..
i treasure everything around me .
i dont want to lose anything around me ..
well ..
i dont feel well again ..
my head is hurting ...
my fever are getting bad !
so ...
i will blog another time okay XD
takkcaiire ! <3
Last Updated @ 5:58 PM
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Saturday, August 12, 2006
I LOVE MY DEAREST CRAPPER <#3
i love her =D
chloe and cherylCRAPPER ; ayrton is behind =D
ruiping and chloe <33
chloe ; mahera ; bear ; dog =D
o9o8o6 <#3
BOYFRIEND ! <#3
boyfriend and galfield =D <33
we promise to buy this cap together =D
<33 <#3 <33
the box of present* mine above STRAW HEARTS
* mahera DEPRESSED CHILDHOOD PRESENT =D
carolineBOYFRIEND and chloe =D
chloe and mahera <33>
mahera and chloe x33
mahera and chloe <33>
THE ART ACCIDENT XD
my shoes ! LOVE THAT SHOES MAN !
ruiping ; clariceMEI ; acelynQINAIDE ; carolineBOYFRIEND ; chloe
carolineBOYFRIEND ; aceyyQINAIDE ; chloeCHAN =D
qinaiides <33>
studying fer math commontest ! last minute study 3omins b4 test =D
jasmineMAMA and chloe x3
amira ; natt ; chloe
chloe and mahera !! x33 LOVE HER LOADS ! 
straw of hearts <33>
boyFRIEND AND galFIELD <33>
hearttss <33>o9o8o6
chloe and cheryl =D
me me me ! :D :D :D
cheryl and me again =D
me ; acelynQINAIDE ; chyna
ayrtonsim !! I TOOK THIS COS HE TOOK MY PIC . fullstop =)
there is still summore piic ..
there is still alot larrh ..
i just upload some of them
cos my com cant use ..
thanks to me i wet the keyboard
and and and !
i will upload more once my com is okay =D
Last Updated @ 1:13 PM
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Wednesday, August 09, 2006
let`s blog ! =D
errms ...
today arrh ...
national day celebration !
had fun larrhs !
at the end <33
me and nad was like finding mwackgang .
and yeah ..
we are all together !
expect fer alyssa !
she was up on the stage larh !
well well ,
i dont know why i just feel like crying when we are together
singing ; screaming ; and stuff .
omg omg .
i was like thinking .
this will be the best present ever !
nad ; nat ; chyna tok to me !
OMG OMG !
i so freaking happie !!
AHHHHHHHHHH !!!
after skool ,
waited for nat with mahera and chyna .
3o mins larrh !
den we decided to leave ,
and we went jp =D
me and mahera ..
sadded chyna went home fer tuition =)
den me and mahera ..
walk walk walk , and went makan ?
den yeah .
she want to go and pass HIM HIS present .
and my present too XD
and i called HIS sister .
and HIS sister was like ..
ask us go there ..
and HE is not at home ..
but when we reach ,
HIS sis say HE is at home !
wth wth wth !
me and mahera was like running away !
ahahaha !
den yeah ...
we were damn damn scared !
hahahah !
mahera DEPRESSED CHILDHOOD present !
which consist of PINK PANTHER PLASTER ; SAFETY PINS ; SWEETS ; BOMB BAGS ; BUBBLES ; PAPER DUCK !
nice larrhs !
ahahaha !
what a unique GIFT ! =D
den we talk talk talk ...
den after that ,
went walk to 7-11 and cheers to bought stuff .
HIS sis make us send her back ?
ohyah !
there is a bloody jack russel larh !
mahera is so so so scared of it till she jump from sofa to sofa XD
den den den ,
we went watch movie ; sleep and just slack there lorh .
then yeah ...
blah blah blahh =D
well , i think i shall find a day when i am free and post all the piic !
that i think are damn damn damn nice =D
i am just lazy to wait can !
errms errms ..
wanna go sleep ! scared cant wake up tmr ! =D
I AM 14 ALREADY !
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh !!!
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Monday, August 07, 2006
just read nat`s blog ..haiish ...
i just started crying .
i cant be happy without her too .
althought she treat me liddat .
i really want her to know
that i am always here fer her .
life without her is so different .
no one to luff with and joke with
and no one to tell my problems to .
everything jus seems different without her .
i am never gonna leave her .
i need her in my life .
althought sumtimes her words might hurts alot
but i will think all the bad things she comment.
i want to change .
i want to change to someone better
and make everyone love that me .
but why i cant jus change to someone they like and let everything be like before .
those fun and laughter and tears and problems we told to each other .
can everything be the same again .
i treasure all of you ..
mahera ; alyssa ; natasha ; nadirah ; chyna
no one can ever replaced you all .
cheering me up whenever i am down .
being there fer me when i have problems , listen to me
laugh with me , go crazy with me .
and alot of memories we had .
i am sorry that i let you all down .
i am sorry fer making you all worry
i am sorry fer always making you all angry
i am sorry fer everything that i done .
i am sorry that i caused so much problem .
i am relli sorry .
are you all willing to forgive me and let me change to be that girl that you all want?
please , forgive me ..
i am willing to do anything just fer you all .
i dont want this happening .
i dont want all this .
i want to go back to those time chyna would always be there to listen to all my problems
giving me her listening ears .
i miss those days when we sleepover at her hse having so much fun
drinking vodka ; looking thru frenster
us going bugis and shop
us going arcade and play para and rf4
us tearing together ..
us going to arena to play pool
us going and play bowling .
when i will throw the bowling ball .
i want to tok to her everytime ..
but i just dont know how to tok to her .
ever since we were no sisters .
i just find it so hard to tok to her .
i noe i am not a gud listener ..
but i want to be a gud listener .
listen to all ur problems and troubles .
cheering you up ?
i just wanna be there fer you .
i miss those days ...
i want to go back to those times with nadirah
when we go out and have fun ; study ; to the beach .
and play in the sea with those seaweeds and sand .
us making a fool of ourself ..
helping her put eyeliner each time when we go out at lotone toilet .
eating ice cream together and much more
those days going out with her ; toking to her ; telling her what is happening on my life .
her telling me all her problem .
me cheering her up .
i just wanna see the happie her .
when she is feeling down ,
it just hurt me ..
i miss those days .
i want to go back to those times with natasha
making WISHING WELL <33>
we have so much so much fun .
staying over her hse .
and going west coast mac and eat
me cooking tasteless maggie mee
she cookind maggie mee and frying her egg ?
us pranking call on ppl .
us doing those crazy post durg tennis .
us getting scolded by mr lim haha or anyother teachers .
us sharing secrets .
us being together in class doing crazy things .
shouting ; running and jumping .
i miss those days .
i want to go back to those time when i can go out with mahera and chyna
watching movies ; playing arcade ; teaching mahera playing para ; us going to seoul garden every month .
us cooking weird food that taste so horrible
us playing fear factor
us going to chyna hse playing basketball ..
us doing crazy things together .
us making a fool of ourself in public .
us going to kbox .
us going to ice skating .
i miss the time we had so much ..
can everything go back ...
i am willing to do anything .
i swear i will .
i dun wan us to drift on any further .
i dont us to break this 1 year of being together .
i dont want to lost all of you
i dont want ...
hope everything will be like the days we were close together .i treasure all of you .
forgive me for my wrong doings .
o8o8o5 ; the day when mwackgang is created .
and tmr is the day when we are together fer 1 year .
i hope you all will seriously forgive me .
i wont want you all to leave me .
i dont want to be here without you all .
i want to go back to those days we had fun and stuff ..
that crazy friday that we walk in 1 straight row
the 6 of us holding each other .
having recess together .
Last Updated @ 10:43 PM
you are all i need Y
Saturday, August 05, 2006
haiish ...
jus finish reading nat`s blog .
i dont know larh ..
it is just ..
jus becos of 1 bear ...
she is pissed with me ..
a bear that i hug to sleep every night ..
she say i say that ..
the bear is more important than them ..
please larh ..
it is jus a non-living thing .
a bear that cant listen to my problems ; understand my feeling and stuff .
i admit i treasure that bear .
but i treasure mwackGANG much more okay .
i can feel that we are all drifting apart ..
i know you are blaming me fer all these drifting and blahs
i am sorry alryt .
i know it`s all my fault that everything is liddat .
i am seriously tired of all these ..
quarrel and tearing everytime .
i jus wan make things clear to you ..
once and fer all ..
that is all i want ...
mwackgang 1 year anniversary soon ..
haiish ..
hope we can celebrate it together HAPPILY AND have alort fun..
i wanna make that day an unforgettable one =)
if you want plan to go escape ...
i wont mind ...
i dont change any of ur decision ..
maybe i will try to overcome my fear of height
together with you all =)
i hope that day will come out to be fine =)
maybe we can shout and share our problems ?
we did not did it fer a long long time ..
i dreamt bout all these ..
but i hope i can make it come true ..
no one can ever replace all of you larrhs ..
so what if i have acey they all ..
please larrhs .
they are not relli what i wan ..
although can say i am close to them .
but i dont treasure them as much as i treasure mwackgang .
fine .. maybe nat , you will think i am jus crapping .
but seriously saying .
i am nort ..
i was never crapping whatever i say .
it is serious okay .
everyone change since this year started .
dont you agree ?
well ...
i promise mahera that i will change .
you say i never tell you all my problem ?
you are relli so wrong =)
i told you all my problems .
nat , you just dun understand me alryt .
i always tell you my problems .
do you care ? do you listen ?
and you bitch bout me ..
i seriously dont care a damn .
maybe i am angry and hurt fer my love ones to even bitch bout me .
but what can i do ?
i will no way bitch bout my love ones =)
you tell ppl that i make no difference if i am in or not .
you tell ppl that is cos of you and mahera i am in mwackgang .
you tell ppl things that were not true .
trying to make ppl hate me ?
you can say all you want ..
bitch bout me all you want .
cos you are not the one getting hurt .
it is me =)
and if i am hurt .
do anyone care ?
you dont care bout my feelings .
will you ?
what you will say is just ask me go with my NEW FRIENDS .
do you understand how i feel when you say that .
i dont think you know =)
everytime you are trying to make a minor problem big ..
is not that i am saying you wad larrhs .
is just that ..
why mus you make a prob so big and make everyone quarrel .
i just dont understand ..
everyone will get sick of me ?
thanks fer that .... advice
if you want to bitch bout me and make everyone hate me ..
well , you can continue doing it if you are happy ..
i dont even noe why do i still treat ppl who bitch bout me so nice .
well .. maybe i am stupid barrh ..
Last Updated @ 11:51 PM
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