Monday, February 27, 2006
todae arrhs ... wah laos ! ii wrote bout more then 13 letters can .. and ii still have like 2 more not done ... hahahs ... todae after skool ... alyssa kissed lke everyone even ME ! omg omg ! ahhhhhhhhhhh ~ ii was lke stunt ... den ii scream ... eeeeeewww ~ went serene centre mac .. wiff all the POLKAdots ppl ... LOLLS ! so mani manii there ... well .. all tt are bored ... let's skip to .. at 7-11 ... jiee made me stop at 7-11 to buy sweets 4 her ... den errms ... while we were walking back ... IT STARTED TO RAIN ! heavy heavy rain ... we were all drenched ... and well ... jiee decided to play under the big rain wiff our bags ... her bag have zip .. while mine DUN ! den we leave our bag at the staircase ... and went out playy !! den play play splash water till the rain stop .. after tt went my hse ... and we were dripping wet ... den yeahh .. we make the whole hse wet ! ahahhahhas ! den we on the fan .. trying to get ourself sick ! hahahas ... and now ii having headache ! and ii kinda lose my voice ! OHYAH ! i bought new phone ! whooo hoooos ! k 75o i.... lalallalas !! happie happiee !!!
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Sunday, February 26, 2006
haiis ...
ii dunno whyy ..
ii feel so moody ...
ii feel tt ii changed ,,
the gurll hu ii m nort anymore ...
everyone is silently leaving me ..
silently walking away ..
ii feel so lonely here ..
ii feel so useless here ,,
why is everyone starting to drift apart ...
why is everyone changing ..
can anyone tell me the answer ...
all my friends are like going further and further ,,
my jiee meii can say so drifting ...
my family having so much problem
how am ii gonna face this world alone ...
without anyone helping me ..
supporting me ...
ii wish to end my life here ,,
but ii cant ...
cos ii will make ppl worry ferr me ...
ii dun wan make ppl worry ,,
ii feel bad ....
but ii seriously wanna thank those ppl hu were there ferr me
whenever ii need them ..
they are always there ,,,
thanks so much ....
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Saturday, February 25, 2006
well ... jus cum bakk ... FUCK THOSE PPL HU TAG AND NVR LEAVE THEIR NAME LARRHS ... WAH LAOS ,,, CB LARRHS ! DARE TAG DUN DARE LEAVE NAME .. HUM JI ARRHS .. THEY WANT WAD THEIR PROBLEM LARRHS .. MY PROBLEM MARRHS ,, FUCK THEM LARRHS ! HONG GAN ,,, forget it ... errms ... friday ,,, after skool ... cme home and change ... den went down bugis meet jocelynJIEE and charissaBAOBEII ... den after tt .. play arcade and stuff ,, actually cannot go in .. den went cine there play para ! was late ferr class ! 1 hr late ... hahahas ! den after tt went dwn cine again .. play arcade ... den errms ... sit cab wiff jocelynJIEE to her hse ... den later she call her dii cum dwn her hse there fetch me home .. den reach bakk home ... mum talk to me ... guess she read my diary .. she tok bout ayrton ... and make me cry ... yeapps .. todae arrhs ... went makan wiff uncle richard ,,, den he counsell me and stuff ,,, den errms .. went fetch mum frm home ... den went pub .. den drink blue vodka ... den after tt ... went lim chu kang to see car racing... FUCK larrhs ... den he drive thru the cemetrey ... FUCK LORRHS ! make me so scared ... den nvm lerrhs .. he still say he lost his way .. wah laos ! tt tym ii wanted to get out of there ... den after tt ... waited ferr the car racing .. den he get off the car .. and smoke .. den ii dunno how cum ... he end up beside me ... and make those fucking spooky noise ... and ii scream ... arrrrggghhh ! den wait wait wait ... but police came ... so went home ... haiis ... ii m missing him even more than b4 ... shiet ... ii cant even smile ... tell me how ? cant even fake a smile .. haiis ... scars .... here and there jus to release all my pain .. it jus dun help .. maybe awhile .. yeahh ... but not forever ... whenever ii m free with problems ... they cum again ... how can ii ever sloved them out ... when one problem is sloved ... another 1 problem cum ,,, is this wad we called life ? FUCKKKKEEEDD UP !
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Wednesday, February 22, 2006
haiis ... LIFE SERIOUSLY SUCK NOW ... big big big big big big time ! haiis ... chynaMEII hav not been toking to me ferr lke the past 2 days ... wad have ii done wrong this tym ... which make her so angry wiff me ? can anyone tell me why this is happening to me again .. ii m relli sick of this life ... ii feel so useless and so stressed up ... ii failed all my test ... chyna is not toking to me ... and nadirahNUER doing sth tt she will regret next tym ... i tok to her ... i counsell her ... but she dun seem to listen or care ... ii feel so so so useless ... someone tell me wad shuld ii do ? and sumone is now out of my life ... ALL HAPPEN TODAE ! haiis ... why is meii angriie ... ii nvr do anything tt make her so angriie ... or issit tt ii make her angriie without me knowing ... ii wish she could jus tell me .. haiis ...
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Sunday, February 19, 2006
well ... yest arrhs , went jurong point wiff kelvin.. watch the fog ... not bad larrhs tt show ... the sound effect is lke so scary can ? den errms ... arcade and stuff ... den went chingay !! saw gilson ; chermaine ; guo qiang ... was expecting to see some ppl .. but ... nvr saw tt person ... haiis .. but guess wad .. chynaMEII saw wc ! he was lke jus in front of her ? l0lls ... maybe fate plan all this .. haiis .. WHY CANT II JUS MEET HIM THERE ? haiis ... ii hav been thinking bout the past agaiin ... wad is lke wrong wiff me ... cant ii jus forget bout the past ? den found out he was at lakeside cheers ! but ii was in the taxi .. siian lorrhs .. haiis ... ii dunno larhs ... den todae arrhs ... went meet matt and frens .. den errms ... we wanted play pool ... but underage ... den played arcade ... then saw farah and azura ... yeahh ! den arcade again .. play the bball machine till siiao ,,, 700+++ l0lls ! errms ... den arrhs ... went yew tee play bball ... kana whack by the ball so manii manii time can ? head ; eye ; stomach ; leg ... paiin lorrhs ... okayy ... sign off herre ! haiis ... now there is lke someone controlling my life ... haiis ... ii mus report and let tt person noe everything ... is lke ... he oso not my stead ... den he lke control me ... ii jus dun lke it ... ii dun lke being controlled by ppl ... haiis ... how how ... cant stand the feeling of being controlled ...
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Tuesday, February 14, 2006
haiis ... VALENTINE DAY SUCK !! let me blog bout yest ... yest arrhs ... well ... my skool have 1 gurl .. she lost her ipod nano and her hp ... den mus do spot check ... den it was during math lesson .. and it was jus nice recess ... den fuck lorrhs ... we all mus stay bakk ... spot check thing ... wah laos ... den check everything ... even bag ... den after check go out sit ... den after prefect came our class .. den make us take out our SHOES ! fuck can ... even shoes oso wan check ... den those express class ... lke heck heck ... den my class ... check till liddat ... till make us jump ... scared we put inside ... FUCK LORRHS ! den errms ... todae arrhs ... in class ... exchange valentine day present .. ii went mad over a rose okayy ? caroline got this rose.. and ii was lke addicted to it ! siiao ... den ii ask her giv me 1 petals .. den after tt it tear into half cos of TERANNAlaogong .. and ii took more more more petals frm ppl ! ((: went seoul garden after skool .. skool finish at 3 ... den take cab dwn to jp ... den full .. den on waiting list .. den we walk walk walk .. play play play .. den after tt ... they call us ... we spent lke 2 hrs there ii think ... we started eating and playing .. den maheraJIEE spill away her soup ... l0lls ! ohyahh ... saw guo qiang ... gilson ... chermaine and their frenz ... HE WAS NOT THERE ... den later ... we play TRUTH or DARE ... n started eating sum shiet food .. which taste YUCKKKS ! almost vomit !! eyyyyerr !! den errms ... we went to arena to play bowling ! den have andyPAPA ; sijieSTEPMAMA ; jeremyLAOPA ; and ppl ... den ii malou myself there ... yeahh ... den maheraJIEE was angriie cos sijieSTEPMAMA was there ... den is lke .... we sat taxi to pioneer mall ... den wanted buy a rose 4 myself ... cos ii so love the rose ! but it cost $5 ? n ii have no money ! den we walk ... maheraJIEE ; chynaMEII and sijieSTEPMAMA ... den after tt .. ii mus neither follow maheraJIEE or chynaMEII ... one walk left , one walk right ... den ii walk middle ... in the end ii follow maheraJIEE ... but ... she end up showing me attitude ... ii dunno larrhs .. haiis .. den is lke .. i suppose to sit taxi home .. but den see jiee liddat , den ii walk wiff her ... den ii take bus wiff her ... den ii thought she was lke jus joking .. angriie angriie liddat niia .. den ii didnt noe she was serious ... den later ii jus show her attitude lorrhs .. den she oso larrhs .. haiis ... dunno larrhs .. MIRACLES NVR HAPPEN TODAY ! ii hate todae ... it end up tt maheraJIEE was angriie wiff me and chynaMEII .. yeahh ... VALENTINE DAY ALWAYS SUCK !!!
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Sunday, February 12, 2006
VALENTINE DAY ! 2 more day !! lalallalas !! tmr have skool ... getting backk ih test result ... * nervous * ii did not study ... summore ii anyh0w do ... den tmr still have ih common test .. wah laos ! secTWO life relli suck !! it stinnnkk larrhs ! so stress ... i now berii scared cannot coped up .. today is the most unlucky day lorrhs .. haiis ... went play bball wiff roger ; tim ; minji ... but end up ... spoilt ! den download sth ... after tt ... cannot open ! den todae keep quarreling wiff my mum ... den alot alot thing happen ... fucked this life larrhs ! so manii things happeninng .. other stuff ... HEADACHEE !
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Saturday, February 11, 2006
LALALALAS ! i m so happie !
he call me can ? OMGGG ! ii AM so happie .. i cant believe lorrhs ... when ii saw tt he call ... I STUNT lorrhs .. omg omg !! todae rawk larrhs ... siiao liaos .. lalalas !! VALENTINE DAY IS COMING !! 3 more patheic day !! HOPE MIRACLES WILL HAPPEN .. I PRAY ... I WISH ... JUS FERR MIRACLES TO HAPPEN ... lalalalas !! althought no VALENTINE date ... but have jiee meii to celebrate with ! hahahs .. seoul garden ... but haff stoopid skool ... till THREE ,, bloody hell larrhs !! ii m jealous ! CHYNATAN have such a nice blogskin can .. CHYNATAN ! i m jealouss !!! LALALALALLAS !
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Tuesday, February 07, 2006
o7o2o6 ; 148 days # 98 daes ..
this may be the last post bout him .. maybe ? hope so barrhs ... it's time to let go ii think ... anyway , he is going to find NEW GIRL ... i should be happie ferr him shouldnt ii ? hu cares bout my feeling ... if he wan it liddat ... wad can ii do .. 3 months 8 days .. shedding tears every nite .. i seriously saying.. ii m tired of crying ... ii becum so emotional ... so weak ... why is this happening ... haiis ... will miracles will happen on 14o2o6 ?? ii dunno ... but ii relli do wish ... may it is all plan .... haiish ... ii dunno larrhs ... my heart relli ache after he gave tt reply to jie ... ii jus break d0wn and cry ... haiish ... jiee , sry tt ii cried yest ... i jus couldnt accpet those words ... ii m sry .. haiis , seriously saying .. ii did not ever regret loving or waiting ferr him all this while or maybe long time ag0 ... ii relli did not regret ,,, ii m learning how to be strong ... stand up agaiin ... may he be happie lorrhs ... maybe ii will be silently * lorving * and * waiting * ... maybe ? ii dunno .. ii will not be selfish ... ii will let him do wad he wan ... alryt ?? yeahh ... ii will giv them my blessing by then ...
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always <33 yoo ...
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Wednesday, February 01, 2006
ii jus change my blogskin ~ at lastt !! ii jus get kinda sick of the old one .. hahahas !! well ... tmr have MWACKgang meeting ... haiis .. nadirahNUER seems to treat this relli serious ... ii dunn0e wad gonna happen tmr ... kinda worried ... haiis .. well ... jus a few weeks after skool .. so manii things are happening ... SICK OF THIS LIFE ... ii m tiired of living ...ii seriously am ... ii ask mum last nite.. if miracles will happen ... guess wad she said ... sometimes... and she noe wad ii was thinking bout ... wth wth ?? den she started toking bout him .. and well ... my tears drop AGAIN.. tell me when will this stop!! when when whenn !!! den todae ... when me n maheraJIEE at chinese garden tt tym ... den we tok bout TSUNAMI ? or wadeva the spelling is ... she made me relli scared... she SCARE me off can ?? she say wad the tsunami is veri high and blah blahh blahh ... she tell me tt they say a sudden tsunami is coming and blahh blahh blahh... she told me the person and everything ii will do when it relli happen.. will it relli happen ?? I M SCARED okiie .. all the things she said bout me doing .. were true ,,, but ... when a tsunami relli hit singapore.. will ii be able to rush all the way to tt place to see tt person ii wanna last see b4 ii diee ? ii dunno larrhs ..
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