Tuesday, January 31, 2006
OMG!! i m so happie larrhs .. errms .. well ... he chat with me ?? lalalallas ! i think i am mad man ... lalallalas !! well ... jus nw nadirahNUER cum my hse .. den we tok bout alot of stuff ... haiis ... things are all drifting apart .. everyonr is breaking up ? haiis ... will this year be a better year or worst ... it is getting worst ferr me ... it jus seems like ii am jus like acting ... how can ii ever make my smile real ?? it's all so FAKE... am ii relli happie living this life ii m having now ... seriously saying... i m nort .. but.. jus not to let anyone worry .. i tried my best to be the OLD me ... n ii kinda did it ?? ii made my promise to him tt ii will be happy ... so ii m happie now on the outside ~ yeahh ,,, aiyahh.. wanna go sleep lerrhs .. nite!!
hereWITHOUTyoo ... 9o days ..
hopingMIRACLESwillhappen...
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Monday, January 30, 2006
haiis ... ii started regretting al0rt of things ... just now ii was toking to nadirahNUER bout stuffs ... den ii started explaining to her stuffs ... i was telling her all the mistakes ii made... cos ii dun wan her to make the mistakes ii made ... yeahh ... den ii started thinking ... i still remember during me and his first month anniversary ... den is like ... althought ii having end of the year exam ... but ii still went to meet him ... den he told me ... " do you realise that our relationship is drifting althought we meet ; tok and chat everyday .. " den ii was like yeahh ?? den he ask me ... " wad ii plan to do ... have a time out ; continue liddat or ... " den he took the cookie and broke it int0 half ... den ii say ... "continue liddat " ii shouldnt have made tt decision ... ii regretted!! i should have say to have a time out ... silly me rite ... haiis ... the feeling of being love is nice ... but the feeling of being loved by someone you love is even better ... haiis .. i dun wan any loved now ... ii jus lke ... feel bad ... cos ii am being loved by ppl ... ii dun love ... maybe as a frenz... yeahh ... but not more than a frenz ... ii dunno larhs.. ii dun wish to care ...
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hereWITHOUTyou ; tellmehowtobeSTRONGwithoutyou
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Saturday, January 28, 2006
yayy ,, ii m like S0 happiie .. ii have hiis phot0 ? lalallas ... ii thiink ii m mad larrhs ... well .. todae ... GET SCOLDED by tt stoopid bitch miss ng ... she SUCKS! ii sick ii dun wan tell her cannot marrhs .. ka0beii ,, scold scold scold ... den celebrate ... den after tt maheraJIEE and chynaMEII cum my hse ? den after tt change n stuff .. den went out meet jasmineMAMA and yuhongUNCLE ?? den went dwn town ... SO MANI POLKA DOT ppl therree? OMG OMG ... n have 1 group of ppl .. frm saiint MARG`S see my buey song ... wad is their problem man ... wanted watch moviie .. but full ... SWAYY cann ?? den later walk walk ... den blahhhs blahhs blahhs ... den went sit MRT to bukit batok ... den went west mall .. play play play ... yuhongUNCLE sponcer me n jasmineMAMA arcade... den saw bernice... she change alort ...den liddat l0rrhs .. haiis ... now ii jus suddenly feel lke useless and bad ... is lke... sumone relli close to me ... is like changing to sumone tt person is not ... is like ... ii feel veri useless tt ii cant help her ... haiis ... ii dunno larrhs ... WHY CANT II JUS BE HAPPY ... JUS FERR ONCE ? WHY CANT II JUS BE LIKE OTHER PPL ... LIVE THEIR LIFE HAPPILY ... WITHOUT ANY PROBLEMS ... WHY CANT II JUS BE THE OLD ME LAST TYM ? THE HAPPY HAPPY DE ? without hiim ; my life change completely ... ii feel so lost ... without any support ... ii dunn0 how can ii phrase it ... but it is jus tt ... ii jus change to sumone ... tt ii dunno ? forgett iit ,, ii m tired ...
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Monday, January 23, 2006
ii miss the touch of you ..
ii miss the presence of you ...
ii miss the kiss 0f yours ..
ii miss the way you hugged me ...
ii miss the days we spent t0gether ...
ii miss the days watching h0rror moviie wiff yoo ..
ii miss the days playing wiff yoo ..
ii miss the days going out wiff you
ii miss the way you used to tok to me...
ii miss the way you saiid th0se words to me ..
ii miss the day when you made th0se promises and saiid it will nvr be broken # but.. narrhs .. yooFCUKINGbrokeit ...
ii miss the days staring at yoo to sleep ; the feeling is like ... neverwantthattoend ... looking int0 ur eyes... staring at yoo ... wishing tt ii will be wiff yoo till the end ... #narrhs .. IT`S OVER
ii miss the days when we spent the whole day doing things we enjoyed ... watching movie ; swimming ; play bball ; go out ; and al0rtt .. # hope ii could jus have the past back...
II MISS EVERYTHING ..
but ...
II MISS YOU EVEN MORE THAN ALL THIS ... 1o2 % loving you ..
justfeellikewritingdown ... haiis ... ALL THIS COULD NEVER HAPPEN AGAIN?? hopeitwillagain ... MY FEELINGS ... iijustwannabewithyouoncem0re <33
; CHLOE ##
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Sunday, January 22, 2006
baby ; i am LOST with0ut you
ii wish u were BACK here
and guilding me through this life..
ii hope this MISERY would jus stop..
i cant stand this life ii m living..
ii keep trying to find my way out of this life..
but ii cant..
it seems tt ii cant find the way out..
ii cant run away frm REALITY ..
l0ving you was my blessing
losing you was my nightmare
ii NEED you by my side..
when ii need you
you WASNT there ...
when ii am crying
you wasnt there to cheer me up..
but u end up scolding me ..
did you kn0w how hurt ii was?
but ii nvr BLAME you ferr anything..
ii keep giving in to yoo ..
but ii think you took advantage of it..
ii dunn0 wad had ii d0ne wrong..
you told me tt ii change ..
ii was relli trying my veri best
to change back to the gurl u WANT me to be ..
but u didnt even know tt ii change fer eu ,,
but instead ...
u say tt ii would nvr change ferr euu ..
SHEDDING tears ferr yoo ...
is only wad ii can do now?
CANT let g0 of the past?
issit wad ii m facing now ?
it been months ever since
we are apart ...
but wad is in my mind everyday was jus YOU ..
thinking of the past ..
our mem0ries ..
our promises ..
everything bout us ..
wad ii can do now is DREAM ..
hoping that miracles will happen..
ii l0ve you ferr WHO you are..
but not WHAT yoo are ...
ever since you are g0ne..
ii was blaming myself ferr losing yoo ..
did ii relli did sth WRONG?
ii dunn0 ..
l00king forward to the future,,
waiting ferr the day u cum bakk ..
when will it be ?
a few months ? a few years ?
ii will always be here waiting..
n0 matter how long it will take..
neverrSTOPlorvingyou ..
no one can ever change my LOVE ferr you.
missing you .
dreaming of you .
wanting you badly ..
5 words ; 19 letters ; 1 meaning ..
il0veyouFOREVER ; i SWEAR
myHEARTwasonceYOURS <33
tell me wad should ii do without you ?
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Thursday, January 19, 2006
HEYYS! errms... t0day ,, 19o1o6 ,, MAHERA JIEE and BELLE MEII birthdayy! lalalalss! den errms.. skool end at 123o ... den went to wait ferr mahera jiee at sec1 level... den kana scolded by tt bitch king kong agaiiin.. den errms,, jiee less0n end at 13o ...after skool.. sit bus to mrt ,, guess wad!! i made new frenz!! from sec one!! AHAHHAHASS! den errms.. go clementi take mrt ,, den jiee go get belle sth frm there .. den sit mrt to CHINESE GARDEN .. den went in.. met all belle frenz ... OHYAHH! saw my cute cute ryan er zi!! ahahahss!! he so cute cann! den ii saw him ... ii jus stay there awhille edn he cum in the hse wiff his frenx.. OMG... guess wad ,, i started like crying?? siiao cann! ii dunno why lerrhs.. when he in the hse .. i wanted cry lerrhs.. den when he left.. OMG.. all the tears flow out.. haiis ,, den ii went in his r0om.. cos ryan they all went.. n ii oso wanted go in.. den cum out.. end up crying agaiin ...cry so manii manii times!! haiis.. den went bball court .. swimming pool ... blah blahh blahh.. where all the MEMORIES aree.. jus feel veri veri moody ... den after tt ,,, me n mahera jiee went home bout 7 ... haiis.. DEN ii chat wiff him.. ii diisiao him.. ask him why he nvr say hi .. l0lls.. den he say wad ii oso nvr say.. den he was trying to find me n jiee after his dargon dance!! AHHH!! if nvr leave early.. still can see hiim l0rrhs.. nvm... haiis ...
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Wednesday, January 18, 2006
SE7EN things that make me smile :
#oo1 ; AYRTON <33>
#oo2 ; mwack ganq ; siiaoPEHs ; g0d familie ; darrlink ; ba0beiis ; frenz
#oo3 ; rockFEVERfourr ; para
#oo4 ; dreaming bout the past ,,
#oo5 ; going to the beach ?
#oo6 ; HAVING HIM BACK i wishh ..
#oo7 ; mostly everything larrhs
SE7EN ways to win my heart :
#oo1 ; treat me well ..
#oo2 ; understand my feelings
#oo3 ; dun promise me any promises tt u cant keep
#oo4 ; love me WHOLEHEARTEDLY ?
#oo5 ; care ferr me
#oo6 ; cheer me up when ii m sad ,,
#oo7 ; BUT TOO BAD ... ii onli wan hiim <33>
SE7EN things I believe in :
#oo1 ; love? not relli ...
#oo2 ; g0d familie ; ba0beiis ; darrlinkk ; siiaoPEHs ; mwack ganq <33>
SE7EN things Im afraid of that are just BLAH :
#oo1 ; being al0ne ..
#oo2 ; cant carry on wiff live
#oo3 ; ii might change ...
#oo4 ; my loves one will leave me ...
#oo5 ; being softHEARTED
#oo6 ; this horrible life will continue ..
#oo7 ; ....
SE7EN things I do everyday :
#oo1 ; chatting ; torking
#oo2 ; smsing
#oo3 ; thinking of him the past ...
#oo4 ; eat ; sleep ; drink
#oo5 ; listen music
#oo6 ; g0 out
#oo7 ; LOVING HIM HIM HIM ...
SE7EN people I want to see right now :
#oo1 ; AYRTON!! hope can see him tmr.. wiishh ,,,
#oo2 ; g0dfamilie
#oo3 ; mwack ganq
#oo4 ; siiaoPEHs
#oo5 ; ba0beii
#oo6 ; darrlink
#oo7 ; FRIENDS?
SE7EN people who should also do this :
#oo1 ; g0d familie
#oo2 ; mwack ganq
#oo3 ; siia0PEHs
#oo4 ; ba0beiiS
#oo5 ; darrlink ..
#oo6 ; huever hu wanna do,,
#oo7 ; EVERYONEE!
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Sunday, January 15, 2006
HAIIS ... agaiin ... stoopid larrhs .. whyy i cant f0rget !! **hit head** arrgghh ... hate myself larrhs ... do anyone n0e how am ii feeling now ?? ANYONE ?? haiis .. day after day .. minute after minute.. 72 days ,,, still cant ? HELPLESS le larrhs ... life jus seem meaningless to me ... tt is wad ii think ... haiis ,, can ii jus be happy? PLEASE!! happiieee!! not miserable!! whyy cant ii?? useless larrhs ... haiis.. ii dunno wad to say bout me n0w... desparate ferr sumone ... so so so desparate? this is not the gurll ii used to be... getting hurt easily? not being strong ?? being sad and not happie?? this is TOTALLY not the gurll ii am can? wadeva larrhs.. haiis.. HELPLESS CASE ... wan to tok to hiim ... wan things to be lke last tym when we were frenz ,,, ii dun even dare tok to hiim ... WHEN ii am online .. he is not ... when ii m offline .. he is online .. what shiet can! no fate ... dunno larrhs !!
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Saturday, January 14, 2006
todayy arrhs ... went out wiff wendyDARLINKK ! meet her at bugis ... den went play arcade and take neos ... den later meet marcus ; j0el and ii dunno his name .. den went to beach road ,,, and blah blah blahhs ... den sit cab to far east ... when walk walk ... makan ... den wendyDARLING ; marcus and me went cine watch ghost movie ... HELL SCARYY!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!! so scared cann! haiis.... wiish SOMEONE was there... den after tt .. marcus went home.. den me n wendy went plaza sing ... SAW GAYYSS! l0lls .. den liddat l0rrhs ...
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Thursday, January 05, 2006
haiis ,, FUCKED THIS LIFE LARRHS! haiis.. she keep curse curse curse ... FUCK LARRHS .. cb larrhs ... haiis , i dunn0 larrhs.. is lke.. everything she oso curse and threaten .. threaten me wiff hiim os0? FUCK OFF CAN! she say ... wad if ii nvr g0 home he will be in trouble or danger in his life? wadeva it is.. FUCK LARRHS... if anything happen .. ii make sure you dun have a gud life... if tmr u dare to curse or threaten me ,, i will make ur life miserable ... ii dun care wad u wanna say ,, i jus g0nna fcuk ur life UPSIDEdown .. wadeva l0rrhs .. kns larrhs... dun yoo ever dare to curse ayrton ; nadirah nu er ; chyna meii or mahera jiee ... nvr u gonna be dead .. i will make u have a h0rrible life ... ii swear man .... jus had enuff 0f all ur cursing and threaten ... n0rt gonna scared yoo anym0re... if u wanna curse ,,, curse me wadeva u wan .. as ur wish ,,, but not anyone of them... NEVER ... FUCK OFF MAN ...
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Tuesday, January 03, 2006
fuck larrhs.. todae 1st day of skool ... i tell u , IT SUCK lorrhs ... idi0t ... n0t even 1 hr after skool start ,, i alreadi kana scolded by more than 5 teachers can ?? bitch l0rrhs ... arrrggghhh , 1st is my haiir ; 2nd is my nail ; 3rd my nose stud ; 4th my ear stud ; 5th my EYES! they cock eye arrhs.. ii nvr even put eyeliner say i put ,, ka0 beii larrhs.. den i say.. ii g0 toilet .. ask them cum os0 ,, if can rubbed off means ii put , my fault ... den miss ng f0llow me to toilet , CANNOT EVEN RUB OFF LARRHS! den if can rub off.. they can giv me dermerit point lorrhs... wadeva they wanna do ii let them do.. i can rub off,, f0rget it.... den they giv wad shiet tok ... tok tok tok.. wah la0.. hahahas.. errms.. den in class... clas time ,, f0rm teacher - miss ng! den is lke.. she say... " you mus call me MISS NG ... not teacher ! if u nvr greet me , ii will hold u bakk and giv u a scolding ... if u see me outside ,, dun nid to sh0ut .. jus greet me when u walk pass me " KNS LARRHS... so thick skin,, LALALLALAS... hahahas.. ii n0e ii m mean ,, SCHOOL SERIOUSLY STINKS MAN! skool nw finish at 2 pm! later l0rrhs.. den todae they still gov wad shiet tok ,, b0ring sehh.. can SLEEP!! skool finish bout 24o ,, den meet mahera jiee at office there ,, den me ; mahera jiee ; chyna meii ; natasha meii went sit bus... den after tt sit mrt ,, den me n mahera jie go jur0ng point ... makan ... den after tt we walk walk... den after tt... we walk frm boon lay mrt to lakeside mrt .. siiao pehh ,, den frm lakeside take mrt to chinese garden ... den hang out there ,, den jiee make me run around the field... den it was muddy ,, n ii didnt noe... l0lls.. den after that , sit mrt to cck ,, den sit 985 home l0rrhs..
9o daes ever since you went away ``
112 daes if you were still here .. <33
iL0VEyou baby ; please come back to me..
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chloe andd jasmine :)) waiting firew0rks.0.jpg)
chyna and chl0e ; waiting ferr andy ..
chl0e mummie and nadirah nu er ; on the way bakk
frm changi beach
chl0e ; jasmine ; chyna # siia0 pehh ~ at citylink
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