Today is super super super screwed up day for me
I didnt pay attention in class .
I didnt talk much to anyone ?
Or can i say i never talk to all ?
The whole day ,
i was just sleeping , day dreaming &&& crying ?
I feel so much weaker whenever i cry
I want to stop crying ,
but tears cant stop
How can i express the hurt ?
Why am i crying for someone
who actually doesnt care a damn about me ?
Who thinks i am lying all along
when i am not ?
Who thinks i am a coward ,
when i took such a big courage to say what i want to say .
Maybe yeah ,
i am a coward .
I went solo and went whatever i wanted to ask
I thought about it for a long time
if i never asked , i will never know .
But what do i get after i asked ?
Nothing but hurt ?
You think i enjoy being miserable ?
I fucking dont alright ...
So what i plan to do now ?
I dont know ?
Well ,
Didnt sleep the whole night yesterday
I hate mdm tan !
She bang the door on my face
She tear those innocent people art piece
She shout at my ear for nothing
Slept throughout chinese today
During math ,
didnt even take out my book
I was just down there day dreaming
got scolded by miss lim
During history ,
was crying away like fuck ?
Wasnt listening at all .
Recess , didnt have the mood to eat
English ,
sleeping and crying ?
Didnt do my work at all .
Till the last minute ?
Art , i did my drawing ?
But it was totally screwed ,
cos i didnt have the mood to draw
and i gave up cos i think it is ugly
Met dear after school ,
sat bus to jp to had lunch
Then after that went mac do work ?
And i end up sleeping
How screwed my day was just because of something .
Rar ! Only sleeping can help me to stop thinking
stop crying && stop day dreaming
Tomorrow counselling in school .
Hope it will be a better day ,
but i guess not =((((
Labels: How screwed can this life be ?