okay ...
my mood is super fcuked up now ..
i dont know what the hell is wrong with me ..
i just throw temper to everyone ..
who actually irritates me now ?
i never had throw such a big temper to anyone before
even my family ?
i am feeling fcuking bad ..
i wanna apologised to them
but ...
i dont know why i just wont ...
grandma is blaming me for everything .

and mum down there throw her temper at me for nothing ?

so everything now ,
is my fault ?
called mum just now ..
wanted to talk to her nicely ..
and guess what ..
i talked nicely ..
and she is down there shouting and complaining
asking me not to call her mum ?
and wat did i do ?
and i just got pissed off ,
and slam the phone ?
wth is fcuking wrong with me now ...
i hate myself for what happen .
being blame for everything

when i did fcuking nothing ...

and some people are like finding me more problem .

OH GOD DAMN !
fcuked up life .

i really need someone by my side ..
to make me happy && make me feel strong ..
i dont want this to continue ...
but where is that someone now =(