arrghh !
i just deleted new picture that i want to post !
THANK GOD LARH !
all those are my fav piic larh !
WTF !
darn pissed off with myself today !
i so unlucky today can !
i quarrel with my mum cos of him ..
my mum called him !
nice one rite ?
he ask me come home ..
and i come home .
and threw my phone on the floor .
AND IT IS KINDA SPOILT !
and now he is like cold towards me ..
and chermaine smsed me .
and i just started crying
i am like thinking what i relli done to this life
i am leading right now .
what i really want .
what i wish my life to be like
what have i done all along since THAT VERY DAY
who i really love
who can give me the happiness i want
who can love me
why cant i lead a happy go lucky life
why cant i be with someone i love for a long time ?
why cant i just be the girl i used to be
how can i changed this life
how come things is this way
how come my destiny is like this
maybe it is all planned
went church today ,
and i learn something .
miracles do exist
miracles happen
god is always there
god is there to answer all your prayers
god know everything happening in ur life
ur numbered days are all planned by god
means .. there is such thing as FATE
means i found my answer .
that fate and miracles do exist
BUT MY LIFE SEEMED SO MESSED UP !
i cant decided what i want .
i am reading all my past post ..
since july 2oo5 ..
and i just started crying again .
i miss those days .
okay .
i am not being despo for him or sth .
is just that i miss those days and fun
my memoriable days =D
those days that i was really those happy go lucky girl =)
a girl so different from now .
i dont play arcade that much last time
i dont do things i do now
i just think i completely changed
i hate myself now .
this girl that i am .
prefer the happy go lucky me before ! :D