Life without him seems so different
although everything is normal and fine ..
but it just seems .. so weird .
everything around me is changing .
and things missing from my life ..
i am thinking if there is really
something called "miracles" and "fate"
i believe they exist here =)
i prayed for miracles to happen everytime
and recently a miracle just happen =)
but when that miracle happen ,
life seems to have more problems ..
me having to face those problems myself ?
without anyone being there to help me or understand me ?
Fate ,
i believe that everything is plan by fate .
good or bad ,
we just have to face everything ..
Love is selfish ; pain and never never fair
i admit that being love and loving someone
is a veri fourtune feeling ..
but love ,
what is love actually ?
love to me just seems to be selfish and pain ?
seeing other couples together .
really make me envy them so much ..
why cant i just be with someone i love and who love me ?
for a long long time ..
who can be there and love me ..
pamper me and sacrifice things for me .
when you`re together with that very special person
that one who you truly love .
in the beginning ,
everything just went nice , great , loving and sweet .
in the end ,
what will happen to that nice , great , loving . sweet relationship ?
hurt ; pain ; depression ?
in love is it a must for someone to get hurt ?
why cant that nice , great , loving , sweet
relationship last for a long long time ?
love is so selfish ..
maybe this is all fate ..
maybe we can only find a happy ending in fairytales .
i wish for a fairytales life
when everything is planned well and perfect ..
and the story can end with a ..
happy ever after ?
that is all a dream ..
but i really wish to have someone ..
someone by my side .
who can love me ; pamper me ; trust me ; sacrifice things
just for me ..
but i think nothing like this will happen in this real world =)