Monday, August 07, 2006
just read nat`s blog ..haiish ...
i just started crying .
i cant be happy without her too .
althought she treat me liddat .
i really want her to know
that i am always here fer her .
life without her is so different .
no one to luff with and joke with
and no one to tell my problems to .
everything jus seems different without her .
i am never gonna leave her .
i need her in my life .
althought sumtimes her words might hurts alot
but i will think all the bad things she comment.
i want to change .
i want to change to someone better
and make everyone love that me .
but why i cant jus change to someone they like and let everything be like before .
those fun and laughter and tears and problems we told to each other .
can everything be the same again .
i treasure all of you ..
mahera ; alyssa ; natasha ; nadirah ; chyna
no one can ever replaced you all .
cheering me up whenever i am down .
being there fer me when i have problems , listen to me
laugh with me , go crazy with me .
and alot of memories we had .
i am sorry that i let you all down .
i am sorry fer making you all worry
i am sorry fer always making you all angry
i am sorry fer everything that i done .
i am sorry that i caused so much problem .
i am relli sorry .
are you all willing to forgive me and let me change to be that girl that you all want?
please , forgive me ..
i am willing to do anything just fer you all .
i dont want this happening .
i dont want all this .
i want to go back to those time chyna would always be there to listen to all my problems
giving me her listening ears .
i miss those days when we sleepover at her hse having so much fun
drinking vodka ; looking thru frenster
us going bugis and shop
us going arcade and play para and rf4
us tearing together ..
us going to arena to play pool
us going and play bowling .
when i will throw the bowling ball .
i want to tok to her everytime ..
but i just dont know how to tok to her .
ever since we were no sisters .
i just find it so hard to tok to her .
i noe i am not a gud listener ..
but i want to be a gud listener .
listen to all ur problems and troubles .
cheering you up ?
i just wanna be there fer you .
i miss those days ...
i want to go back to those times with nadirah
when we go out and have fun ; study ; to the beach .
and play in the sea with those seaweeds and sand .
us making a fool of ourself ..
helping her put eyeliner each time when we go out at lotone toilet .
eating ice cream together and much more
those days going out with her ; toking to her ; telling her what is happening on my life .
her telling me all her problem .
me cheering her up .
i just wanna see the happie her .
when she is feeling down ,
it just hurt me ..
i miss those days .
i want to go back to those times with natasha
making WISHING WELL <33>
we have so much so much fun .
staying over her hse .
and going west coast mac and eat
me cooking tasteless maggie mee
she cookind maggie mee and frying her egg ?
us pranking call on ppl .
us doing those crazy post durg tennis .
us getting scolded by mr lim haha or anyother teachers .
us sharing secrets .
us being together in class doing crazy things .
shouting ; running and jumping .
i miss those days .
i want to go back to those time when i can go out with mahera and chyna
watching movies ; playing arcade ; teaching mahera playing para ; us going to seoul garden every month .
us cooking weird food that taste so horrible
us playing fear factor
us going to chyna hse playing basketball ..
us doing crazy things together .
us making a fool of ourself in public .
us going to kbox .
us going to ice skating .
i miss the time we had so much ..
can everything go back ...
i am willing to do anything .
i swear i will .
i dun wan us to drift on any further .
i dont us to break this 1 year of being together .
i dont want to lost all of you
i dont want ...
hope everything will be like the days we were close together .i treasure all of you .
forgive me for my wrong doings .
o8o8o5 ; the day when mwackgang is created .
and tmr is the day when we are together fer 1 year .
i hope you all will seriously forgive me .
i wont want you all to leave me .
i dont want to be here without you all .
i want to go back to those days we had fun and stuff ..
that crazy friday that we walk in 1 straight row
the 6 of us holding each other .
having recess together .
Last Updated @ 10:43 PM
you are all i need Y