tears are back here again ..
why must this always happen ..
haiish .. ii have no mood to go tmr anymore ..
ii dun wanna go .. ii dun wish to go ..
fcuk this world larhs ..
everything ii treasure is over ..
ii was no longer the gurll ii was ever since ii noe he got a girlfriend ..
ii dunno why did ii change so much ..
ii tot all the problems was over ..
but it prove me wrong ..
nothing was over at all ..
it seems that things became worse ..
why cant jus anyone understand me ..
ii doing this cos of them ..
ii nvr go with her cos of them ..
it`s cos ii wanna treasure them ..
ii was not with her anymore ..
since monday ..
but no one believe ..
i am sick and tired ,
i really am ..
now ii lose someone close to me ..
someone relli close to me ..
who listen to all my problem
who give me encouragement ..
that person is gone from my life ..
i lose her ..
cos of one stupid thing ii did ..
and i lose someone ..
so stupid of me ...
i hate myself ..
ii relli do ..
why things always happen on 28o5 ?
last year , this year ..
haiish ...
ii relli dunno le lorrhs ...
mum words ..
"they`re jus together with you cos they pity me .."
this sentence was always in my mind ..
ii wan them to be my best sisters ..
but ii dun wan them to cos of my mum ..
den they be together with me ..
ii felt truly hurt with those words mum said ..
mum said that when she was angry ..
den when we are okay ..
ii went to ask her ..
and she said she used the wrong word ..
so which was the truth ..
even if ii believe tt mum said tt cos she was angry ..
that sentence is always in my head ..
the pain hurts ...
haiish ...
ii am tired of living here ...