Friday, November 18, 2005
i cant stand this anym0re ,, i have no 1 to t0rk to n0w.. my feelings are all inside of me ,, i wanna let it all out.. ii dun care if anyone or ayrton or huever read this.. i dun wanna care a DAMN anymore.. ii wan HIM.. although ii noe it is over.. i m trying to face the fact.. IT IS ALL OVER! but i cant.. i fcuking cant accept the fact... i m not happie.. i hate this ,, i love HIM .. i want HIM .. i miss HIM .. i need HIM ,, but it is OVER! haiis.. i dunno me larrhs.. i wanna giv up on myself.. helpless lorrhs.. todae i almost kana bang dwn by a car lorrhs.. why not i jus walk? if i did not run fast enuff.. i am now alreadi in the hospital,, my mind is always thinking bout HIM,, every min every sec.. whyy did i cry yest when tt teacher took my band away? why did ii?? the reason is because i treasure it,, i treasure everything ii had wiff HIM .. EVERYTHING.. and it is lke.. skool reopen i nid to c disclipine mistress ,,, i dun mind.. just to get tt band bakk? ii cried badly ,, jus 4 those bands? i noe ppl might think it is stopid to cry 4 those bands.. but i hope u all understand,, ii seriously treasure it ,, ALOT ... although it is over ... why did i still lurve HIM? ii seriously dunno whyy... although HE break wiff me .. so wad?? tt doesnt mean i mus find other guys rite? i seriously still lurve HIM as much as b4... always the same .. ii noe ppl might think it is stoopid.. i noe it is stoopid.. but if i can forget bout it and carry on life ,, tt will be better rite? now ii m leading a misery life... not a happie 1,,, although i can luff ; play ; tok.. but i m not alryt... i m not as happie,, i will nvr gonna be alryt ,, izzit difficult to forget sumone u relli lurve?? the answer is yes ,,, if it is easy.. i wanna forget and change my life to sth happier.. to be the cheerful gurll i used to be last tym b4 all these things started ,, II CANT! to natasha qns ,, so wad if HE treat me bad? ii dun care,, so wad if HE dun lorve me? i will STILL love HIM as much... ii will onli hav HIM in my heart okie? no other guys.. so wad huever is better than HIM? they are not the 1 i love rite? haiis.. I DUNNo LARRHS.. i still cant get 0ver HIM .. u get wad ii mean? i dunno how say larrhs... i admit i m stoopid to wait for HIM but ii will still wait.. no matter how lonq izit lorrhs.. i jus wan the old HIM bakk.. ii dun care if we are not t0gether or wad... i jus wan the old HIM bakk.. HE dun love me? ii dun mind.. i jus wan HIM to change.. quitt his bad habits and stuffs ,, lke how he use to be when i noe him,,, ii noe i can do nth bout his chanqes n0w,, i dun hav the right or the power to.. but i relli wish tt will happen ,,, ii LOVE him for what he is but not who he is ,, i dun care,, what i noe is tt I LOVE HIM,, tt is all i noe... thiink i had said enuff,,,Last Updated @ 4:00 AM
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